So over feeling this tight.

I've got my breakfast up and go in my handbag because my band is
soooooooo tight this morning. Water was decidedly unenthusiastic about
going down - sip, stuck, sip, stuck, ow. Got there eventually though.

Band wasn't keen on coffee either - not so much sip, stuck as sip, sit
and think about it, begrudgingly drain, rinse and repeat.

Might be take it slow and play nice today - I don't think the side
order of cold and cough is contributing. Can I not just get one
variation on a germ at a time? The tonsillitis has just cleared :(

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The ultimate incentive to keep moving

I've been a little bit over not having enough of a push to keep moving, so I've signed myself up to do the Eureka climb.

Those of you not in Melbourne may not be familiar with the Eureka Tower - it is our tallest building at 90 floors, and an amazing observation deck up the top. It's OK though - I don't have to climb 90 flights of stairs as I'm only doing the walk, and not being timed. Just 88 floors.

Am I crazy? Yeah, probably. All I know is that when someone suggested it to me at band camp a few weeks ago, all I asked was "can I take the lift back down?" I definitely prefer going upstairs rather than coming downstairs.

My current trainer and my previous trainer both think I'm slightly nuts, but are both giving me as many tips as they can - mostly to find as many stairs as I can and use them like crazy, and to tape up my knees. I might pay a physio to do that the day before to make sure it is done properly.

As part of signing onto the climb I need to commit to raise funds - unless I raise another $55 I don't get to take that first step. I've emailed all of my family and will talk to work people tomorrow - I really really want to do this. I think I'll get the support I need. You can see how my fundraising is going here

The best bit - not being content with just doing Movember this year, my gorgeous husband is doing the climb too. He is lots fitter than me so should be just fine. I might just walk behind him and enjoy the view :)

Slack bloggers update

Eeek - it has been a whole month since I last posted - how appallingly slack of me. Definitely time for an update then.

Bandwise, things aren't fantastic. I've got an amazing level of restriction - and feel full very quickly, and am still bringing food back up at least 4 - 6 times a week. Really not my idea of a good time. At least I've found more toilets with calendars stamped into the base. Apparently they show their date of manufacture. Who really cares? Can't say I do, but at least I can go to the toilet with confidence knowing that I'm sitting on the newest seat available. It's the little things.

I got the results of my swallow and my bloods. All my levels are good, so I'm doing something right, and my band is positioned properly but looks quite tight. That was pretty impressive with 1ml of fill in a 10ml band. I had the last ml of fill taken out last week. By the next day I was losing meals still - couldn't even finish one of the kids kitchen (213gms) meals. Bit over that. So I'm having a gastroscopy on November 17th. Hopefully we'll be able to see what is going on and sort it out. Some days my band is fine - don't eat a lot, but get enough to sustain myself and function. That is really all I want to be able to do.

On the scales, nothing is happening. I'm not going up and I'm not going down. On the plus side, my body shape has changed, and I have dropped a jeans size. I can live with that.

Exercise - I'm a fan. I finally got my butt into gear and got myself a new trainer. He pushed me and it was sooooooooo good. He worked out that I'm most competitive with myself and really used it. Poor bugger has done his Achilles though and has been in plaster for most of the last month, but will hopefully be out of it on the 17th of November. I really miss chasing him around the gym boxing for half an hour before being tortured with interval training, or weights on the bike. So I'm walking a lot instead, and getting to the gym at least twice a week. I just need to keep moving.

I'm not the healthiest though. I filled my 6th or 7th script for Rulide for the year today. More tonsillitis. I'm really not enjoying it. I've got a referral to see a specialist to get them removed, but I'm scared. The GP spent a really long time with me going through all of the risks of having an adult tonsillectomy, and one of the biggest is around vomiting. You can do a whole world of damage to yourself if you vomit in the first 4 - 6 weeks after having them removed. Based on my first couple of paragraphs and my current digestion challenges, I don't want to have that risk. Maybe I need to consider liquids for that time. Sigh.

My husband is awesome and I definitely like married life though. Working for me. And I'm not pregnant. Really, I'm not. I promise. The next person to say I might be gets to take the next call from my husband's grandmother, the one where she asks for "any news about children". I mean it.

King George still eats salad. Good thing too, cos all forms of lettuce and I still have a virulent loathing for each other.

At least one of us eats salad

Yet again I struggled with dinner - thank goodness for King George who
helps out with leftovers

Food diary 14 august

Food diary 14 august

600
Loette
750 mls water
200 mls raspberry cranberry juice
300 mls nescafe gold with 1 sugar, pura light start and benefibre.
250 mls banana and honey up and go
150 mls water with berocca

700
I'm slow today. Didn't want to get up and liquids aren't that keen on
going down. Blech

830
Large skinny latte

1042
750 mls water

1145
75 gms chicken schnitzel with 20gm sweet chilli sauce. Bad move. Back
it comes and I'm left with that horrible tight stuck feeling.

1230
I bolt from the chemist where my photos are printing to find the
nearest toilets. Thank goodness I know where they all are in our
complex. I hate that feeling of getting all hot and feeling the saliva
all well up. Yuk

1430
300 mls nescafe gold with pura light start and one sugar

1530
100 gms ski dlite blueberry yoghurt. Not real happy about heading down.

1600
Off to mums. Still feeling quite blocked so I make sure ive got
disposal units in the car. 4 pieces of extra and 45 minutes later I'm
at mums - no loss of yoghurt and I don't feel blocked up any more.
Wonder if the saliva generated by the chewing of the gum helped? I'll
have to watch out for the laxative effect though.

1700
300 mls warm water. Broken up by watching mum try to ride a bike. I'm
so proud of her for learning now.

1830
Mum has invented something for dinner. She's used about half a cooked
chicken, chopped onion, capsicum, made a cheese sauce with skim milk
powder and Parmesan cheese and topped it all off with a potato, carrot
and sweet potato mash. Half a cup of that went down beautifully.

1930 - 2300
Book club - I didn't write exact times down but this is what I had -
in no particular order. 2 glasses of red wine. 1 cup of white coffee.
1 piece of capsicum with olive dip. 1 cracker with Philly dip. 1
cracker with blue cheese - so so yummy - I really savoured that. 1
sliver of strawberry cake with cream.

2330
Off to bed. Mum just told me that she thinks I've been looking pale
since about a week after we got home from our honeymoon.

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Food diary 13 august

540
Loette
750 mls water
200 mls raspberry cranberry juice
300 mls nescafe gold with 1 sugar, pura light start and benefibre. My
morning coffee always has benefibre.
250 mls banana and honey up and go
150 mls water with berocca

630
Definite slosh. Definitely over caffeinated yesterday - had a really
restless night. My eyes are fetching red too. Noice.

758
750 mls water

830
Oh I need a coffee - the blood levels in my caffeine stream are
dangerously high

920
Large skinny latte

1000
750 mls water

1046
100 gms ski dlite wild strawberry yoghurt

1300
3 mouthfuls of meat lasagne. Porcelain pirates ahoy. Time to check out
the calendars stamped on the bases of our work toilet seats. Wooo

I'm so tired today I just want to eat. I don't need to but I really
really want to just keep putting food in my mouth. Now I understand
all those articles I read about people who sleep badly tending to
weigh more. If I had the same food compulsion I do today every day I'd
bs back to being the size of a house. Coffee, where art thou?

1415
500 mls water

1500
Small mandarin. Yum. I love juicy mandies, although pith really gives
me the shits. Peel peel peel. Juice squirt on my shirt.

1645
Caramello koala. Yum. Gooey gooey caramel. Sooooooooooooooooo good.

1839
800 mls water

1910
Half a cup of serious butt kicking pasta sauce with spirals. 3 spirals
in and I'm stuck. I can feel them clawing their way back up my throat,
being thwarted by the geyser of saliva that has started. Guess where
i'm headed?

1945
We now return to normal transmission after that break. Good thing King
George likes pasta because he has very kindly eaten everything left.
Skinny cats that think they are people.

I've had to move my swallow - Tuesday morning now. Gonna try for
Monday with the bloods.

Bridgy, you asked about blogging from my iPhone (oh you noticed, this
old thing!) with food diaries I just keep updating during the day
using a note, and then email it to a blogger address I prepared
earlier. Easy. I heart technology.

2030
Jarrah xtreme choc with 300 mls water and 2 marshmallows - 1 pink, 1
white. Such a girl.

Bed now - need some sleep

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Food diary 12 august

545
Loette
750 mls water
300 mls nescafe gold with light start and 1 sugar
150 mls water with berocca performance

Gonna be an interesting food day - got a breakfast and a dinner.

810
300 mls water
Regular skinny latte

830
Prociutto, fried egg, spinach & Parmesan on toast. Ok so the toast was
only 2 bites - would have been very unpretty otherwise.

930
Regular skinny latte

950
750 mls water

1300
750 mls water
1312
Oh shit. Water bubbles sitting there waiting for me to burp them up.
Haven't felt this horrible full bubbly feeling since just after my
fill came out. Might push lunch back an hour or so. Still 500 mls of
water to go. Crap. Bugger. Bollocks. Fuck a duck

1330
Massive burp. Goodbye air bubble from hell. Please don't come back

1430
213 gms kids kitchen cheezy mac and beef

1600
Small fuji apple. Yum

I've noticed today that my rings get looser as the day gets longer. My
fingers seem to be really puffy when I wake up but shrink during the
day. Anyone else?

1845
Glass of sprite zero

1900
Glass of red wine

1945
Lemon lime & bitters

2015
5 chili prawns with 2 dessert spoons of penne & 3 kgs of chili. Nearly
lost the first 2 prawns but getting rid of a stack of saliva helped.

2100 - 2200
2 skinny lattes with one small biscotti

May have been slightly under vegetabled and over caffeinated.

Dinner with my 2 long lost cousins and my brother - wonderful

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